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Friday, November 30, 2012

Gentle Aggression





His thoughts, his heart, his openness got me open....like for real.

I'm thinking "I like you a lot...a lot a lot and I want to build a great friendship."

...also thinking "I know you're fragile, not that reflecting weakness, but that from which the past has delivered, a harshness that has shattered the very foundation where you placed your trust. Those pieces, I want to handle them with gentleness...as I do you."

Kindred spirits evenly placed.

No Sleep!

Today may be one of those rare occasions when I drop like 10 posts in one day. I can feel it in the air. Every year I look back, scratch that, everyday I look back and count my blessings. I've met some beautiful and not so beautiful people in a short period of time. Every encounter has been a valuable lesson none the less. No one enjoys the pain that comes with this journey, in fact there are times when I dread the "thought" of it. Who doesn't though? There are days when I think, "Yes! I got it!" and others where I just want to hit the refresh/restart button. I will say this though, the feeling of being "Loved" couldn't be any better, and I'm talking starting with self. I don't only see the transformation, I feel it and I will it. I wouldn't trade this experience in for the world. Everyday is a new start and for that I am eternally grateful!



Starting Over

I will soon be performing again :) I am elated, nervous, thankful, nervous but relaxed at the same time. Did I say nervous? lol Yes I hope to meet many new people. Stepping out my comfort zone once again never hurt so good.

Time

Goes extremely too fast for my liking. It's been over year. Shame, shame, shame.

Zoned out. I may start writing again. I figure I can throw the rumblings of my spirit into the universe once again. What will come of this? I honestly don't know. All I know is that I'm searching, quietly but surely. One day I will learn is too little too much? Or too much really too little?

Less is more right? More or less I hope the Most High grants me wisdom and forgives me of my short comings.

Friday, December 2, 2011

It's OK

The creation process is a delicate one. Through all the chaos in my mind, I find peace in the rhythm of my writing. As many put it, organized chaos. Forever grateful I am to be blessed with a passion that brings joy, tears, questions and sometimes answers. Combative thought processes eager to be enlightened but many times I retreat. Seeking brings forth a heavy burden on the heart, seeking for truth and love. Not to disregard The Almighty because all truth is in Him. I am speaking of a path that one travels to find happiness. I honestly think happiness is having peace. Having a peace of mind and heart would mean that the issues of life would no longer bring wear and tear as it once did. The anxiousness of growing older and leaving tasks uncompleted would be greeted with a simple "I did my best and gave my all"...no worries attached to it. Why does one make a simple thing complicated? I will never know.  Peace, I speak peace...


Saturday, November 19, 2011

Loner By Nature

Word. The title is me and I am that title. I started this entry in a haze, where I had a nice lump of thoughts to type down, and as the time passed I became too lazy to fulfill this quest. But I read a fellow artist blog which is so amazing to me. His knack to tie poetry with his with randomness is so dope to me. Inspiration is contagious. Sometimes I don't understand why I gravitate towards things the way I do, but one thing for sure is that I love when people are authentic, even if what they say or do is brash...they do not hide it. Now as for me, I am very private. I excel at being low-key and find an awkward attraction to solitude. I always have a fear of becoming some sort of hermit but I feel this music could prevent that from happening...who knows. Ah social anxiety and all it's tortuous beauty sure knows how to make a problem out of no problem. Forming relationships are an obstacle but I'm at the point where I do want intimacy and a companion. What am I waiting for? Actually I'm not waiting, I just rather fate bring it all together naturally. I will say when I want something I will get it. *wink* Eh that wasn't charming at all lol. Anyways the whole point of making a blog was to reveal more about myself which I find hard to do either way. I rather just post album covers and links to my music but how boring and selfish is that? Especially if there is a listener that wants to know more. I take it into consideration all time. I didn't forget about you, I just hope you forgot about me.


PEACE




I Rather It Be Just Me and You...

Ensilence Presents: Just Me and You Compilation






Hey Hey World! I just dropped a compilation which features my sensual side :) Soft, Sensual and Explicit! Yet creative and artistic. I always wanted to drop some music that people could make babies to. Well at least I tried lol. This features songs that were recorded I'll say over a period of 3 years. An artist should always be able to display all sides of him or herself. I'm known to do "conscious" raps or more raw lyrical tracks. BUT that is what others know me as, I do not believe in putting myself in a box or carrying a certain label. If I could do rock music, I would do that as well. I am open to all avenues as long as it allows me to stay creative...and I can do what I want. So what defines me...is me just being myself. That is all I can be you know. 

Did I mention I LOVE soul music. Beautiful, fruitful, sexy, and pure music from the soul. The type of music where love is unashamed, bold, vulnerable and ready. Wooooo don't get me started!

Here is the track-list and featured artists:
   1. Just Me and You
   2. Hold U Down ft. Cyndiva (Prod. by Macado)
   3. Miss U Much (Prod. by Macado)
   4. Right Here (Prod. by Macado)
   5. Call Me (Prod. by Macado)
   6. Brothaz Love Cool Jane (Prod. by Tryf Bindope)
   7. Started Finish (Prod. by Focus)
   8. For Awhile (Prod. DJ Teknik)
   9. Sugah Mama (Prod. by Ensilence)
  10. Cherry Pickin (Prod. by Tryf Bindope)
  11. Katplay (Prod. by Macado)
  12. Kiss My Ink (Prod. by Macado)
  13. Fast Food Freezer (Prod. by kid C)
  14. Playin Out (Prod. by kidC)
  15. She Dont Want (Prod. by 3D)
  16. KCrazy (Prod. by Ensilence)
  17. So Hypnotik (Prod. by Fathom 9)
  18. 1st Site (Prod. by JDilla)

Featured Artists:

Cyndiva of Unit Steele, Tryf Bindope, Bass RoKC, 3D, Nick B, Marsha Ambrosius and Jack Nickelz

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Repping My Kansas City, MO Family

What's good my beautiful people? Check it check it...There will be new music coming out from from family representing Kansas City, MO, BarebaKC Records. Tryf Bindope, Bass RoKC, and 3D also known as Drizz.

Here are there projects which should be dropping at the end of this year or early 2012. Be on the lookout. They are dope artists that deserve attention and shine. I love them and will continue to build and make more music.


Tryf Bindope-Mental Vacation LP



Bass RoKC-Ciroc LP





3D-Royal Flush


Thursday, November 10, 2011

Lace Up

I will always fight the good fight...how about you? Lace up


Love,


Ensilence aka The Underdog