As One

27 years without intimacy, and they say you can't miss something you never had, well I'd like to say that statement is false, at least on my behalf. You can't tell me that the Most High didn't create us to love or to have someone share this journey with. The older I get, the more apparent this becomes. I understand that we are alone within ourselves and walk a separate path but within that we can share our hearts, our souls, our time to grow with one another. To me that is beautiful. The desire to love and want to be loved cannot be extinguished from my heart and at times these thoughts make me weary in spirit, yet not enough to give up hope.

Wherever and whoever you are, love...my heart has been seeking. At times I feel like I met you ( I Know I Have) then you re-assure me that it is not so, I believe because of fear. If someone is willing to love you then why shut it down? If he or she is saying "I want to give you my love" then why turn your face and later petition that you are open and ready? Such conflicting statements. I am still willing.

It is good to receive as well as give. Allow that person to be a blessing to you. You are worthy and deserving. A person will only petition for so long before it turns into heartbreak.


I am pretty sure I have much more that needs to be said. I'll just leave it as an incomplete thought and let my tears speak the rest.


Much Love

--ensilence

New Music and a Strange Place

Ok so I've released a new EP  titled "Divine Pain".  I wrote a recent message on Facebook describing why I chose that name for the title.

"This project was purely therapeutic. As you may or may not know, I battle with severe depression, so instead of wallowing in my darkness...my craft is my anchoring light that allows me to lift above my pain...which to me, is Divine. Divine Pain."

To be honest it is uncomfortable to talk about but when I put the pen to the paper, when the words release from my lips into the mic, when they greet the instrumental, it becomes a mirror, allowing me to see myself and face my inner fears. This is what I needed. My creative...I NEED THAT.

The theme can be summed up by the wise words of Kahlil Gibran: 
 
"Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding." Kahlil Gibran


You can purchase the new release at my bandcamp:
http://ensilence.bandcamp.com/album/divine-pain

Or you can just download it Free here: 
http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?f2rrw83x66m2t4r

I love this awesome artwork by Sit Haiiro. I think I may have posted it on here before, not quite sure. Either way it is such a moving piece and summed up the condition of my heart at the time.

Much love to the producers: 
Iller the Abstract Giraffe, Fathom 9, G-Force, Melodiesinfonie, DJ Profecy, Rice Master Yen, and Maloon TheBoom. 

Such Talents. I love working with such gifted people. They bring light into my world.

Much love beautiful people.

I love you.

--ensilence