Another Ancestor Watching Over

Rest with the Most High grandma. Sing those songs you said you would when you get there.

Love,

Ensi

Infectious

Smiling is infectious. 

:)

-ensilence

Strange Dreams. Night and Dare-mares

I think I will start keeping a dream journal as my friend suggested. I truly have strange dreams but I know what lies underneath are the unsettling thoughts of my fears and desires.


-ensilence

Wisdom 4 the Day

28 Years...

I am thankful and blessed to reach this moment. I give much thanks to the Most High. I am in the land of the living.


Gemini Season, baby. :) *wink*




-Ensilence

New Music and a Strange Place

Ok so I've released a new EP  titled "Divine Pain".  I wrote a recent message on Facebook describing why I chose that name for the title.

"This project was purely therapeutic. As you may or may not know, I battle with severe depression, so instead of wallowing in my darkness...my craft is my anchoring light that allows me to lift above my pain...which to me, is Divine. Divine Pain."

To be honest it is uncomfortable to talk about but when I put the pen to the paper, when the words release from my lips into the mic, when they greet the instrumental, it becomes a mirror, allowing me to see myself and face my inner fears. This is what I needed. My creative...I NEED THAT.

The theme can be summed up by the wise words of Kahlil Gibran: 
 
"Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding." Kahlil Gibran


You can purchase the new release at my bandcamp:
http://ensilence.bandcamp.com/album/divine-pain

Or you can just download it Free here: 
http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?f2rrw83x66m2t4r

I love this awesome artwork by Sit Haiiro. I think I may have posted it on here before, not quite sure. Either way it is such a moving piece and summed up the condition of my heart at the time.

Much love to the producers: 
Iller the Abstract Giraffe, Fathom 9, G-Force, Melodiesinfonie, DJ Profecy, Rice Master Yen, and Maloon TheBoom. 

Such Talents. I love working with such gifted people. They bring light into my world.

Much love beautiful people.

I love you.

--ensilence

Mystline

Nujabes-Mystline

Peace!

PEACE! To the heavy weight bearers
Smile when the light couldn't be less nearer.
Dream balance. Reality postponed
They say snuggle death cause Heaven is a close home.
 
Shattered without broke bones,
Transparent to the hue of Life's tone.
Peace... the strength is your own.


Peace.

--ensilence

Afloat

My Mind:

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Evol speek em taolfa. Woh tuoba Uoy?

Can't 
move 
backwards. 

Reverse it and go forward....




Love keeps me afloat. How about You?

-ensilence

Do Disturb

“Artists are here to disturb the peace.” ― James Baldwin.

Does my art make you uncomfortable?

I don't care if I make you uncomfortable.

-ensilence

Stillness

Sometimes one needs to quiet the mind, to let it rest. Let go. Embrace stillness.

These scriptures upon my heart.

I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8

Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it. Psalm 34:14

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

The fruit of righteousness will be peace; the effect of righteousness will be quietness and confidence forever. Isaiah 32:17 

Who Are You?

Purging:

Some people will literally try to break your spirit, whether it is planting seeds of doubt in your dream, trying to alter your views with the notion that theirs are "superior" in a sense, or surrounding themselves with such negativity that it becomes who they are. I sincerely feel for sad for these souls, instead of being free to be who they want, they are man pleasers. We all have our inner struggles, that is understandable but for one to become so embittered  that one needs to impose his or her bitterness on those surrounding, is a damn shame. Be who you are called to be : Yourself. I am a God fearing woman, yet I refuse to have any individual or religion confine and define who I am. The definition of happiness is different for everyone so stop looking for those around you to provide this. Find your path, discover what makes you glow and smile. It is more difficult to live vicariously through another individual than it is to discover the diamond inside of yourself.  Fear and ignorance will have you doing all kinds of crazy things. How about you open your mind... or better yet your heart. EMPATHY. Change starts inside and works it's way to the outer. Stop trying to cut, shape and mold others when YOU yourself haven't been in the fire long enough. 

As it is said, Be the change you wish to see...or be silent.


Much Love. 

-Ensilence