It's Happening

I dislike when I take these long breaks form my blog  because it only leads to more excuses and procrastination...as much as I am on facebook...yeah.

I think....no I know I avoid it because it allows me to be alone with my thoughts which means I have to face myself. I do this everyday but it's never too late to start fresh and anew AGAIN. Never.

Well I have some new things happening, great things actually...sometimes when I think about it...it begins to scare me. Things are beginning to fall in place and I don't understand how or people coming into my life when I need them most....almost like they are the perfect fit...scary yet beautiful. I give all praises due to the Most High.

I have a chance to make my "dream" a reality. I have a chance to live and just be ME. I want to touch lives not just with my music but with my life. I want to share and give of myself, my love to the people. I know "my love" isn't perfect or may not understand how to love fully...yet. One thing I do know is that LOVE is all the things I desire in perfect harmony, the way I picture it....beautiful and beyond words or touch, beyond the little cutesy hearts and decorated images we're conditioned to see,  I mean love in it's pure and raw form, no conditions...I want to embody that. I will.

Anyways I think I'm getting off topic. I met a wonderful young lady over month ago by the name of Sahaar which means Dawn in Arabic, I think. Her name is quite fitting to her personality. She is very sweet, bright, spunky and a hint of wild lol. I love and respect her honesty, what she represents and how she thinks. She revealed something to me about myself through conversation unknowingly, when I listened her,  it was almost as God was speaking through her like "It's time." Her boldness calls out my fear and makes me have to step up. In other words she lights a fire under me and challenges me. I need that. 

Wait, did I tell you that she is a wonderful artist? She can sing, write, produce...yo she does it all for real.You can check her out, her stage name is Nauxamine. We decided to become a duo known as Kemetri, the name tying back to our ancestry, Kemet and the fact that we have great chemistry together despite knowing each other only briefly. I'm still taking it all in. I know that I'm as prepared as I am going to be for this journey and honestly I'm excited. I've spent to long waiting and putting off things I know in my heart I've wanted to do. I will honor and use my gifts for good...even though I'm a little bad  *wink* Lol.

Much love to EVERYONE for the support and love. Every person that has came into my life and made a difference, whether positive or negative, I have learned from you. 

Much love to Jellybean *cough* I mean Nauxamine. Let's take this world by storm.

Peace.

 

We Are More.

Awakened with a spirit of heaviness.

The reality sets in and I cry for this world.

The reign of the wicked "looks" like triumph from every corner.

The genocide. The rape. The torture. The shedding of innocent blood. The world silencing the voices of the lost as darkness lays as a thick cloud over the horizon. When will it stop? Surely I often hear the word, "Balance". Everything brings balance...the Good and The Evil. The wickedness of man is imbalanced. Man's heart is sick and drunk off the dream of Power, a thirst that will NEVER be quenched. Even at the expense of a million bodies dropping in the secluded deserts, the endless stream of tears, the muted cries for help, when will the heart grow tired of such wretched ways? When will we wake up? Or are we so consumed in our own worries, debts, and situations that we can no longer see over that wall? Do we even care to climb and see what is on the other side?

When compassion becomes foreign and we shrug our shoulders at the end for any life we are SICK.

When Governments slaughter in plain sight then announce that THAT evil was done for the greater good...that is sick.

We are numb. We have hidden our warmth behind our corroded masks. We have dimmed our lights in fear that the darkness will overcome.

We are more than war. We are more than the war in the physical and the spiritual. We are beyond the definition of our own reality.

We are more.

A change will come.

--Ensilence

Sometimes I'm a Preacha

Got that natural latenight pass TWO collection plates Sunday  Service Sermon Style.

Beautiful Mind

Sharing a spoken word verse

Ink Can't Bench It

The world is heavy and no amount of ink can lift this.

None.

--ensilence

Retrospect for Life

Brown Sugar

The boldness to say, "I want you...", I'm almost there.

Even with that said I'd actually like to see it materialize into something "Good" in the near future. We'll see. My past experiences of feeling "something", saying, and displaying it...turned into nothing. I guess I can look at it like it was a blessing in disguise considering it wouldn't have been well for either party. In due time? Maybe, maybe not.

In my mind, Sid and Dre, Brown Sugar would be the mold. That right there, is def a fantasy but a beautiful one to behold, even if only for a moment.

...An eternal moment.


--ensilence

Yo I Wanna Thank Ya

This deserved it's own post. I will say it again. THANK YOU ESS MARIE!


You worked that! And I appreciate it! You know we have some music coming right? Right.

Make Me A Believer...Now

 Hey I was overwhelmed when I received a message in my inbox that the video to "Melodic Masturbation" was finished. I asked this beautiful young lady Ess Marie if she could do the honors of putting a visual to the track because I dig her style and find beauty in her sensuality as well as person. Now, in my mind I was like "She's going to say naw...how can I come out of nowhere and ask that. She is going to think...this chick has the audacity..." LOL. Yes that is how my mind works. I almost didn't approach her about it.

But when I did she said yes which blew mind, now mind you I really didn't have a vision for it, she has a crazy good eye for the video thing and I'm glad she ran with what was in her mind. It came out wonderful, sensual, and beautiful.

The idea came about when I first heard the beat which is produced by the talented Fathom 9. I originally titled track "Make Me A Believer" because at the end of the verse I'm stating make me a believer of your Love. Mr. Fathom requested the present title which was the title of the instrumental, still fit perfectly. But yo when the beat dropped....man oh man, put it this way my imagination was instantly turned on and turned out. I told myself I that I can't just simply "rap" over that beat, I have to caress it, talk to it, make verbal love in between the melody which led to a sultry spoken word verse backed with some pretty heavy sexy sighs hahaha. At first it was pretty hilarious while I was recording it. For some reason I can't take myself serious when I try to do something "sexy". I had to do so many takes for the "moaning" LOL.  But when I got in that "zone", that was it...the beat had to tap out. With this track I had to make your ears climax.

Now let's add the visual to the verbal, it's mood shifting sensual art. I have to continue to give a BIG Thanks to Ess-Marie aka Stush Love aka Ms. Stacy Bush, whom is also a dope singer, you can check her music  here:
https://soundcloud.com/stushlove

Check the videooooooo

Mmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!