The world is heavy and no amount of ink can lift this.
None.
--ensilence
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Brown Sugar
The boldness to say, "I want you...", I'm almost there.
Even with that said I'd actually like to see it materialize into something "Good" in the near future. We'll see. My past experiences of feeling "something", saying, and displaying it...turned into nothing. I guess I can look at it like it was a blessing in disguise considering it wouldn't have been well for either party. In due time? Maybe, maybe not.
In my mind, Sid and Dre, Brown Sugar would be the mold. That right there, is def a fantasy but a beautiful one to behold, even if only for a moment.
...An eternal moment.
--ensilence
Yo I Wanna Thank Ya
This deserved it's own post. I will say it again. THANK YOU ESS MARIE!
You worked that! And I appreciate it! You know we have some music coming right? Right.
Make Me A Believer...Now
Hey I was overwhelmed when I received a message in my inbox that the video to "Melodic Masturbation" was finished. I asked this beautiful young lady Ess Marie if she could do the honors of putting a visual to the track because I dig her style and find beauty in her sensuality as well as person. Now, in my mind I was like "She's going to say naw...how can I come out of nowhere and ask that. She is going to think...this chick has the audacity..." LOL. Yes that is how my mind works. I almost didn't approach her about it.
But when I did she said yes which blew mind, now mind you I really didn't have a vision for it, she has a crazy good eye for the video thing and I'm glad she ran with what was in her mind. It came out wonderful, sensual, and beautiful.
The idea came about when I first heard the beat which is produced by the talented Fathom 9. I originally titled track "Make Me A Believer" because at the end of the verse I'm stating make me a believer of your Love. Mr. Fathom requested the present title which was the title of the instrumental, still fit perfectly. But yo when the beat dropped....man oh man, put it this way my imagination was instantly turned on and turned out. I told myself I that I can't just simply "rap" over that beat, I have to caress it, talk to it, make verbal love in between the melody which led to a sultry spoken word verse backed with some pretty heavy sexy sighs hahaha. At first it was pretty hilarious while I was recording it. For some reason I can't take myself serious when I try to do something "sexy". I had to do so many takes for the "moaning" LOL. But when I got in that "zone", that was it...the beat had to tap out. With this track I had to make your ears climax.
Now let's add the visual to the verbal, it's mood shifting sensual art. I have to continue to give a BIG Thanks to Ess-Marie aka Stush Love aka Ms. Stacy Bush, whom is also a dope singer, you can check her music here:
https://soundcloud.com/stushlove
Check the videooooooo
Mmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
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Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Sick Brit
Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwww
For the past few days my body has been under attack. I woke up and felt like I had a sinus infection as well as my left jaw is in pain because of my wisdom tooth. I am in denial it might need pulled :(
Feels like I'm moving in slow motion.
Hopefully I'll be better by the weekend.
--ensilence
Monday, March 18, 2013
As One
27 years without intimacy, and they say you can't miss something you never had, well I'd like to say that statement is false, at least on my behalf. You can't tell me that the Most High didn't create us to love or to have someone share this journey with. The older I get, the more apparent this becomes. I understand that we are alone within ourselves and walk a separate path but within that we can share our hearts, our souls, our time to grow with one another. To me that is beautiful. The desire to love and want to be loved cannot be extinguished from my heart and at times these thoughts make me weary in spirit, yet not enough to give up hope.
Wherever and whoever you are, love...my heart has been seeking. At times I feel like I met you ( I Know I Have) then you re-assure me that it is not so, I believe because of fear. If someone is willing to love you then why shut it down? If he or she is saying "I want to give you my love" then why turn your face and later petition that you are open and ready? Such conflicting statements. I am still willing.
It is good to receive as well as give. Allow that person to be a blessing to you. You are worthy and deserving. A person will only petition for so long before it turns into heartbreak.
I am pretty sure I have much more that needs to be said. I'll just leave it as an incomplete thought and let my tears speak the rest.
Much Love
--ensilence
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
I Aint Them
This is such a GREAT read. It made me adjust my conversation with self and being aware of what I'm saying as well as others.
Put it like this you can SPEAK positive or negative, and which ever outlook you gravitate toward....it WILL come to pass.
We have to break generational curses, it breaks my heart to witness and hear people deem themselves unworthy because of some bullshit insecurity of another person. Know that you are far greater than your past or what you "think" you are.
Don't limit yourself. You do have the power to move nations. One deed (positive/negative) can change your life as well as those around you. Now imagine if you LIVE that shit (positively). Imagine the hearts and minds you can heal and affect. Be beautiful. Stop fearing what the world thinks because honestly most of them are in the same boat as you.
Don't get me wrong, walking your own path does become difficult, you are not exempt from hardship but think just how crushing it will be to live with regret of not living up to your potential. Have you ever observed the bitterness of a soul full of regret? One without a dream(s) or hope?
Indeed. It does not have to be that way for anyone.
Unlock your Mind and Heart
Much Love
--ensilence
Slacking On Post But Not Brain Matter
I been slacking on my daily writings as well. I'm really in my head...I would like to think it would transfer through ink and onto paper but it doesn't always work that way.
Let's try this again.
*stare*
See what I'm talking about?!!!!
--ensilence
Friday, March 8, 2013
New Music and a Strange Place
Ok so I've released a new EP titled "Divine Pain". I wrote a recent message on Facebook describing why I chose that name for the title.
"This project was purely therapeutic. As you
may or may not know, I battle with severe depression, so instead of
wallowing in my darkness...my craft is my anchoring light that allows me
to lift above my pain...which to me, is Divine. Divine Pain."
To be honest it is uncomfortable to talk about but when I put the pen to the paper, when the words release from my lips into the mic, when they greet the instrumental, it becomes a mirror, allowing me to see myself and face my inner fears. This is what I needed. My creative...I NEED THAT.
The theme can be summed up by the wise words of Kahlil Gibran:
"Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding." Kahlil Gibran
You can purchase the new release at my bandcamp:
http://ensilence.bandcamp.com/album/divine-pain
Or you can just download it Free here:
http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?f2rrw83x66m2t4r
I love this awesome artwork by Sit Haiiro. I think I may have posted it on here before, not quite sure. Either way it is such a moving piece and summed up the condition of my heart at the time.
Much love to the producers:
Iller the Abstract Giraffe, Fathom 9, G-Force, Melodiesinfonie, DJ Profecy, Rice Master Yen, and Maloon TheBoom.
Such Talents. I love working with such gifted people. They bring light into my world.
Much love beautiful people.
I love you.
--ensilence
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Brit....I mean Ensi in a magazine?!
I have been blessed with my first magazine feature in the TLG Magazine from the UK! Ecstatic! Never would I have dreamed that someone would like my music so much to feature me. Highly Blessed and I give many thanks to the Most High. Also A big thank you to Alice Muir and John Opfer of TLG!
Please check their website at: tlgmagazine.com/
They have great articles with a lot of great talent.
https://twitter.com/TLGMagazine
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