Stay

I need you to...Stay

The Stranger the fruit the more dangerous the roots

Black thoughts construed and tailored to my truth

My quest for love loops undone

Another story unsung

Cuts the respiration twice in a lifetime I brung

The fabric of my strength, every breath, every scent

Each tear spent dripping on this fine print

and my mind went where the traces in the sky lead

passed the galaxy, as my ancestors breathe

I feel my second wind like their presence in the leaves

won't stop til I fulfill the essence of the dream

courtesy of Alice Green...the blood runs thicker

scriptures on the mantle brought definition to a sista

sketches of a woman summons a divine figure

assigned on the side to make my ride richer

no matter how bittersweet times hit ya

I remember that I'm blessed to reflect...so I stay

Stay.

Death is eminent. What's the price of Hell that we're living in?

Agendas hid, the lone catalyst, find significance 

In small details, vision split but still see well

Both sides of the story repelled

And history repeats its self, caught up in our own glory

Magnified wealth, forget to raise our own shorties

Forty with an appetite of destruction 

lack of discipline...can barely function

Lusting and busting on a broads flesh

Raw sex birthed bastards that draw Tecs

At the next stop light, long ski mask, and don't respect your life

A sight to too shameful...

But if you only knew how deep the pain go

Taught to aim low and forget the main goals

A mangled psyche

Pipe dreams and a system too shiesty

Might lead even the right seed to a grimy...existence

--Ensilence 

Boxed Excuses

"I'm not scared, just stuck."

Another excuse to remain in the box.

Step out and be the Brilliant YOU that you are.

I Love You.

I need you to Love You as well.

Peace

-ensilence

It's Cold b

:)

Gibran on Freedom

The Prophet is such a beautiful book. This passage touched my heart today

"Verily all things move within your being in constant half embrace, the desired and the dreaded, the repugnant and the cherished, the pursued and that which you would escape.
      These things move within you as lights and shadows in pairs that cling.
      And when the shadow fades and is no more, the light that lingers becomes a shadow to another light.
      And thus your freedom when it loses its fetters becomes itself the fetter of a greater freedom." -Kahlil Gibran
 -------------------------------------------------------------

Freedom. What is it that I know about freedom other than first or second hand accounts in history books, or the raging protest of my neighbor? What does my soul speak of freedom? Bridled with the cares of this life, I too, search for a pure interpretation of liberty that dispels self made chains. I hunger to breathe without the silent ache in my spirit and behold a weightless joy as I sing its praises on my lips. May the day soon come when I can embrace its hold. 

--ensilence

Parables

 Copped some new classics :)

Started parable of the sower. So far so good. :)

Mind and Heart Conversations

Divine pain reigns conversations of the heart/
an early start, X marks the spot/ 


Conversing with the heart... there are so many promises, so many dreams, yet less time to balance them properly. One should not place emphasis on the "Tomorrows." They remain in a distant land far from the present. Do not dismiss this day, Today's lesson, for it carries a gem needed for the rest of the puzzle. I am learning this myself. One cannot lend his or her words without tasting the definition of them in his or her own life.

Disperse wisely.

--ensilence

Lone Traveller

Brownie Love

 Kush brownies somewhere in the universe said, "Brit...come try me."

I AM and will always BE

Shout out to my good friend Fathom 9 for this.

Activated

My Writer's Cove has been activated. Retreat is inevitable until I release what I need. Working on something(s) that I hope come out remarkable. It is always a battle of what I see and hear in my mind, to transfer that into art/music for what it is in here (my heart)...is a beautiful challenge.

Peace!

PEACE! To the heavy weight bearers
Smile when the light couldn't be less nearer.
Dream balance. Reality postponed
They say snuggle death cause Heaven is a close home.
 
Shattered without broke bones,
Transparent to the hue of Life's tone.
Peace... the strength is your own.


Peace.

--ensilence

We Are One

Black Rose

.

I'm lost in this here place...

where tears shape lakes 

and deception progresses in the ear gate.  -ensilence

Goal Implementation

A few things I am implementing and will accomplish. I am looking forward to a shift in my life. The only one stopping me is ME.

Know that you can do all that you put your mind and heart into. It may not be easy but it can be accomplished.

Much Love

-ensilence

The World Is Yours

My favorite hip hop record of all time

It's That Illmatic Naw Mean?

Just going through one of my favorite MC's catalog, Nasty Nas. I can't stress how much great material this brother has. His unreleased vault is even greater than his released. One of the best poets in the game.

He's in my top five.

Yes I did a "Stan" move and took pics of this album booklet, It's Ill though...the platinum edition :)

The World Is Yours :)

--ensilence

Death of the Headphones

 

Moment of silence please....

My Audio-Technica ATH-M40fs, my first taste of headphone heaven... and I hear these ones aren't even the best (lusting those new M50fs). They survived many falls, chord yanking, greasy hair follicles (peeling), loved on my ears and caused fatigued from many recording sessions. The wire even started to get disrespectful and curl when I wasn't looking. I'm telling you we been through it all and then that is when it happened...a short. The right ear-cuff  said, "enough B...I'm done." It's been a wrap since. I can't even be mad...I... I just wish we had more time you know? Maybe if I had laid them down softly on sheets of silk, the frame wouldn't have deteriorated as rapidly as it did. Or if I had wore scarves every time I recorded  to avoid the greasy scalp...or stretched the chord yoga style so it wouldn't have begin to split. 

I'm so sorry, I'll do you better next time baby...I promise :(

R.I.P. 2010 to 2012 

Wings to the Mind Heh?

That's right. :)

Literary Flow

Updated my mini/baby book shelf  lol. Someone asked me yesterday, "what does your literature consist of?"

As I said before I'm going to build me a mini library one day. I love reading. Keeps me sharp and engaged with the world. 

I also agreed to do that " read at least 25 pages a day" thing which is 2 books a month,  24 a year, of course I want to up that, double, triple it. 

I didn't get into heavy reading. until I picked up James Baldwins "The Fire Next Time" from the library some years ago. I just purchased it a couple weeks ago and I look forward to reading it again with a different set of eyes as my outlook as drastically changed since I'm getting old lol.

And my big sister put me onto "The Four Agreements" by Don Miguel Ruiz. Shout out to Cyndiva!

 Imagination. Books are a writers journey into the unknown. 


I'd like to write one one-day.



--ensilence

Simple Things

Heavy

I just heard a song that strummed the strings to my spirit and caressed and eased my uneasiness. This is what I mean by "music is a universal language."  I would be lost without it.

That voice....the mood...

This is by a band named Vaughan Noir, "Heavy"

Listen to the full track here:

http://vaughannoir.bandcamp.com/track/heavy-2 

"Heavy footsteps, heavy breathing
Impending doom & pleading
Upset stomach, twisted mind
Why is your love undefined?
 
When did you plan on telling me?
What's with all this yelling? Please,
I don't want this anymore; So,
Turn around & walk through
That door...
 
Walk through that door
Walk through that door
Walk through that door
Walk through that door
 
Why would you make commitments
That you can't keep?
You were once my wildest dreams
And now... I ... Can't... sleep
 
When did you plan on telling me?
What's with all this yelling? Please,
I don't want this anymore; So,
Turn around, and walk through
That door..."

Love Souls Not Things

Yeah. I made another one.

Love Souls Not Things.

-ensilence

Toe to Toe

The struggle of the unsteady hand and brush lol

Concentration Level: 1000000000

Afloat

My Mind:

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Evol speek em taolfa. Woh tuoba Uoy?

Can't 
move 
backwards. 

Reverse it and go forward....




Love keeps me afloat. How about You?

-ensilence

My First Splish Splash

So I finished my first little painting lol. It called Love Covered. 

Painting is mad relaxing. I shall watch lots of tutorial on how to blend. Yo I think I found another love/outlet :)

-ensilence

Without a Shadow of a Doubt

"Verily all things move within your being in constant half embrace, the desired and the dreaded, the repugnant and the cherished, the pursued and that which you would escape. These things move within you as lights and shadows in pairs that cling. And when the shadow fades and is no more, the light that lingers becomes a shadow to another light. And thus your freedom when it loses its fetters becomes itself the fetter of a greater freedom. " ♥

-Kahlil Gibran

Dance

Dance.

Until the pain is No More

And the toil of your soul knows joy.

For one cannot transpire without the other.

Count it all a blessing.

Balance is restored.

--ensilence

Within You

"How do you deem yourself but a meagre planet
When locked within you is the whole universe?"

-Ibn al-'Arabi

Times A Wastin'

My Duty

My music will make you Think.
Laugh.
Smile.
Wet.
Say Wtf.
Maybe even Cry.

It is my honor and duty to move you mentally, emotionally and spiritually. It is my pleasure to touch your life.
Thank You. ♥

 -ensilence

Scavenger Hunt

Old rhymes books found. I was surprised that there are a few gems on some of those decrepit sheets...amongst the cringe worthy lol. I may have a few more boxes locked away in my closet. Who knows? I may take what's good, revise and create some newness. We shall see.

While on the hunt, I found some magazines. It brought back memories when I actually some of the early "The Source" magazines. Some of them were so damaged I threw them away...which I painfully regret. I want to live in my Nostalgia sometimes!

Scratch Magazine was dope. Too bad they stopped printing it.

What I was really searching for were my old sketchbooks which really didn't have anything worth showing. I want to get back to sketching. I'm pretty basic/below average. I need another outlet. I just asked my little sister Kareemah if she can give me some tutoring lessons lol.I use to love drawing then some years went passed and you know how that is.

You can check her deviant art page her for some of her work: 

http://www.karii-la-maravilla.deviantart.com/

She also has a blog too :) check her here and follow as she updates frequently about her upcoming projects.

http://www.restlesscreativitywithkariij.blogspot.com/ 

These are some old sketches I done in the past. EH.

Also I want to learn how to PAINT!

I WILL learn how to paint. :)

Mmmm I can't wait!

-ensilence

Do Disturb

“Artists are here to disturb the peace.” ― James Baldwin.

Does my art make you uncomfortable?

I don't care if I make you uncomfortable.

-ensilence

Consolation

Genius Child

"This is a song for the genius child
Sing it softly, for the song is wild
Sing it softly as you ever can-
Lest the song get out of hand.

Nobody loves a genius child.

Can you love an eagle?
Tame or wild?
Can you love an eagle
Wild or tame?
Can you love a monster
of frightening name?

Nobody loves a genius child. 

Kill him – and let his soul run wild"
  
Genius Child 
By: Langston Hughes