Sexy Beast Transformation

Some days I feel I will transform into a sexy beast...this thought usually just stays in my mind :)

WE can live that out though, so bring yo luscious self over HERE.

LOL

Funky

Get Up

“You have to learn to get up from the table when LOVE is no longer being served.” —Nina Simone

Beautiful Chocolate

 That complexion is all types of seductive.  

The power of Melanin.

-ensi

28 Years...

I am thankful and blessed to reach this moment. I give much thanks to the Most High. I am in the land of the living.


Gemini Season, baby. :) *wink*




-Ensilence

Every Waking Moment

Maaaaaaaaaan

Yo I have a spiritual crush on somebody I shouldn't.

I will definitely keep it to myself.


 Word.




--Ensi

Growing into My Own

I finally found my journal last night. Spent my day praying, meditating, and reading. I needed that peace because my spirit was in a heavy spot.

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6-6-2013

Two months and a world of things are occurring, Blessings and Curses. I would like to keep this entry brief but that might not happen.

I've opened my world to new beautiful souls, quite attractive. The connection between our minds and spirits is something brand new to me. I have met people like this before but not on a physical plane. They show me...ME through them and I appreciate that. All the reason I've avoided writing entries  because my thoughts show me who I really am. I find it strange and liberating to be at home with folks I hardly know yet feeling like they have been a part of my life since I entered this world. How does that work? Their names in combination means, "Dawn" and "Refreshing", which is interestingly beautiful within itself.I choose a journey to pursue a journey through Music as well as Truth and Love. I pray to keep these beautiful people in my life and nothing petty divides us. I thank the Most High for them.

I still feel like a lone soul trying to break from my shell and understand why I feel the way I feel about myself. I know it's going to take time to get to the bottom of my heart. I hope those around me have patience. I have so many questions with so little answers. I know I have to look within for the majority if not all. I've been doing a lot of thinking, meditating and even some praying. Longing to understand why things happen the way they do, I often take refuge in silence. That may actually be the reason for my artist/poet name. I'll use that reasoning for sure.

Some off the wall thoughts I may put here and regret later...I feel like maybe God is ignoring me...or maybe not, I am blessed, but with certain things..I'm on that ignore list. I don't know. Things I "feel"  are "dire" but maybe I can find within myself?

I grew up in the church. I saw things that were beautiful when I had no understanding and ugly when I understood. Today, if they saw me, they would say I'm a backslider, that I'm running from my calling , or that I'm straddling the fence. Even when I was a part of the church they didn't know how to take me. As one man called himself prophesying to me, he stated, "You're an odd one." That's right. I'm unconventional, a bit strange and that is OK. It took me a LONG time to accept that, now that I have, the LOVE is that much more powerful. 

Why do we feel we need to fit in a group? Why do we feel we need to be controlled? Why are we scared of true "Change"? 

If I want to know something, I will search the four corners of the earth for understanding. Feel me?


Much Love

-ensilence

It's Happening

I dislike when I take these long breaks form my blog  because it only leads to more excuses and procrastination...as much as I am on facebook...yeah.

I think....no I know I avoid it because it allows me to be alone with my thoughts which means I have to face myself. I do this everyday but it's never too late to start fresh and anew AGAIN. Never.

Well I have some new things happening, great things actually...sometimes when I think about it...it begins to scare me. Things are beginning to fall in place and I don't understand how or people coming into my life when I need them most....almost like they are the perfect fit...scary yet beautiful. I give all praises due to the Most High.

I have a chance to make my "dream" a reality. I have a chance to live and just be ME. I want to touch lives not just with my music but with my life. I want to share and give of myself, my love to the people. I know "my love" isn't perfect or may not understand how to love fully...yet. One thing I do know is that LOVE is all the things I desire in perfect harmony, the way I picture it....beautiful and beyond words or touch, beyond the little cutesy hearts and decorated images we're conditioned to see,  I mean love in it's pure and raw form, no conditions...I want to embody that. I will.

Anyways I think I'm getting off topic. I met a wonderful young lady over month ago by the name of Sahaar which means Dawn in Arabic, I think. Her name is quite fitting to her personality. She is very sweet, bright, spunky and a hint of wild lol. I love and respect her honesty, what she represents and how she thinks. She revealed something to me about myself through conversation unknowingly, when I listened her,  it was almost as God was speaking through her like "It's time." Her boldness calls out my fear and makes me have to step up. In other words she lights a fire under me and challenges me. I need that. 

Wait, did I tell you that she is a wonderful artist? She can sing, write, produce...yo she does it all for real.You can check her out, her stage name is Nauxamine. We decided to become a duo known as Kemetri, the name tying back to our ancestry, Kemet and the fact that we have great chemistry together despite knowing each other only briefly. I'm still taking it all in. I know that I'm as prepared as I am going to be for this journey and honestly I'm excited. I've spent to long waiting and putting off things I know in my heart I've wanted to do. I will honor and use my gifts for good...even though I'm a little bad  *wink* Lol.

Much love to EVERYONE for the support and love. Every person that has came into my life and made a difference, whether positive or negative, I have learned from you. 

Much love to Jellybean *cough* I mean Nauxamine. Let's take this world by storm.

Peace.