Stuck Off the Realness

This has been in my head all morning.

"Your crew is featherweight..."

Taking It Way Back

I've always wanted to do one of those fly oldschool photoshoots. Rocking some fresh kicks with the dookie gold chain rope, crispy skinny jeans and a fly jacket near the train tracks. YES. 

Or I could get on my rugged raw with the Timbs, baggy jeans, hoody beneath the goose vest with the baseball bat! I have to do one of these soon.  I did cop some fake Cazals with a red Kangol last year lol On my LL cool J ish. I just copped two sets a batteries for my digital camera so I might as well take some interesting flicks. I thought about doing it today but then I forgot there is mad snow out there. I don't get along to well with cold weather, it brings the sissy out of me lol. 

Will be headed to the mall today which I'm like "Eh." I used to love going to the mall when I was younger, gazing at all the things I couldn't afford, well it's still that way today...the affording part, but I find it highly boring now. Window shopping is cool I guess every now and then. Where I truly like to window shop is at a music equipment store. If you want to make this lady smile take me to Guitar Center hahaha! We don't have to cop anything...we can just look, allow me to fantasize.  

Some flicks I took out of sheer boredom. Oh yeah this is my favorite shirt (Hello Kitty) that shrunk to a devastating small size. I was incensed. You can't tell from these angles, but it rolls up passed my belly button, pretty soon it's going to be sitting on top of my breasts LOL. I refuse to get rid of it. :( 

Actually I'll show you. See that grey undershirt is normal length. In the words of Flo from Good Times, "Damn, Damn, Daaaaaamn!"

Ooooweeeeree I didn't notice I have those hairy Italian arms LMAO

Humbled.

Yo shout out to my friend Paul aka Paulie lol from London! His words are always inspiring and keep a smile on my face! Thank you

Also another shout out to my sister Dee Lioness!

I am so humbled by the love others show me. There are no words to describe it. I just give so many thanks.

I love y'all

Above All Else

Moving to the rhythm of pulsating silence
chaos awaits near the exit
impatiently seeking, grappling, and groping the next willing vessel
distraction provides scandal to itching ears
they long to belong...singing with vain routine
circling the valley for 40 years without wonder...stubborn
where is the pursuit of change?
Strength, inside the roots of the soul denied by theory
Lift the veil. Look up.
allow the Light's piercing rays to shed the scales from the eyes
The temporary discomfort will fade...short lived
only to be redeemed by a Lifetime of knowing.
A Lifetime.
Of Knowing.

Rise Above. 

--Ensilence [Free-write]

A Little Secrecy

Let me tell you my secret...

I enjoy making you smile.

-ensilence

Expect the Unexpected.

Everything that could go wrong DID.

Postponed the trip until things re-fall in place. Smh...the chain of events, I mean one after another, were ridiculous .

In other news, I have an opportunity offered to me. Hopefully I get a call back from this organization. It would be a total blessing.

Change gone come.

It already is so I give my highest thanks

Road Trip Cherry Poppin

Preparation. Excited and a little tired...but when am I not? I will be doing my FIRST road-trip today. I'm headed to Florida which is a 15 hour drive from my hometown. It will be well worth the the drive! Family time! I never been to the beach or seen the ocean...I will get a to bask in one of God's amazing wonders tomorrow! My heart is smiling. This year is truly a new start...and I AM READY. 

This will be the first of many trips to come. I recently had some great news through a wonderful conversation yesterday...I must say God works in mysterious ways but one has to be open to change in direction. Where one door is shut, another one is opened. 

Love, Peace, and Openness, I welcome with my whole heart.

I have some last minute packing to do. I'll be traveling with my two baby sisters and a friend. Two cameras will be on deck, a lot of laughs and smiles. Drama free. Will be hitting my aunties house to rest in South Carolina, love...love family. I will bask in these moments.

Prayers to arrive and make it back from our destination safely.


Permanent Grinch grin until further notice. :D

Dope Find

Came across a dope tumblr recommended from a discussion board. I digs it, some great art and interesting concepts. If ya dig it then click it.

 http://afrofuturistaffair.tumblr.com/

New Growth...3 Years in the Making!

It's a new year, but I count every single day that I can open my eyes, inhale, exhale, as a blessing. God willing, I look forward to many, many more.

Speaking of new growth, I am celebrating my 3 year anniversary of going back to natural (my hair). To say nonetheless, it has been an interesting ride. It has taught me that beauty comes in all packages and that ALL textures are beautiful. One should never be ashamed of one's true roots but due to social conditioning, this has been the case. Mental slavery has sunk its fangs deep into the entrails of society using bondage as an agent to shape, mold, and break individuals. It's success has be proven over and over again which is why knowledge is the undo-er of this process as long as it's applied properly.For me, this was the case as it is for countless others.

I had an understanding to a degree but the poisoning of my thoughts and why I didn't have "manageable" hair was overpowering. It took some research and self searching to abolish the self loathing sentiments. I can truly say it brought a sense of pride and comfort about who I am. It exposed me to the history of my ancestors in a different light. This is why I can't stress enough about learning one's history and just history in general. There is so much beauty in different cultures...so much to learn.

 I love every strand, every kink, and every coil of my hair. And it's dope how many styles can be rocked. Kinky or "nappy", you can call it what you want, all I know is that it's sexy and beautiful.

On my Jimi Hendrix "Swag" lol. All natural baby :)